Minam's expression is the closest I have to my own right now.  ^_^

Life...is good again. Well, at least temporarily. *_* But whatever. I'll settle for the temporary bliss.

Anyways, so I no longer need my douchebag of a prof who didn't even bother to email me back jackass I hope he gets herpes. Why? Because I went to talk to another prof of mine, who doesn't even know me that well, and she said yes to being my reference! *twirls* I'm so fucking ecstatically happy right now. A giant huge fucking large rock just got itself removed from my shoulders. ^________^ To say the least, I am in an exceptionally good mood right now. I can actually sleep tonight!

I actually frolicked in the elevator shamelessly after I left her office. This incident just proved to me forever that women are better than men all around. In general, we are just nicer. ^_^

There is no emoticon equivalent to my joy right now. *prances around*

Oh, and I've gone back to writing now that I am happy again. ^^ Hopefully I'll come out with a short MinChun one-shot, my first, by the end of the weekend. It's called Love: A Story Told in Reverse.

Oh, I'm so jolly~!

I can't seem to stop listening to this song. >_< f(x) is my guilty pleasure these days. I actually like this version better than the YG version, mostly because I can understand this version. ^^ Even if M.I.C. butchers the word "Lollipop". Plus I think one of the guys looks a bit like Jay Chou...

I'm interested as to how they are going to package M.I.C., because they've gotten my interest, and few C-Pop artists hold or get my interest.

So the year has not started off so brilliantly for me as I sit around worrying about my future and school and what the fuck I'm gonna do after university ends for me in April which is when I'll have my third nervous breakdown.

I don't understand why life remains so complicated. I'm running around currently like a crazy chicken trying to hopefully get into grad school, if only a crappy grad school. One of my profs has agreed to write my admissions letter, another has not. The sad thing is I only HAVE these two profs to write my reference letters as well, and that bastard just won't say yes. >_< So now I have to go hunt him down and relinquish my pride and beg for him. *shakes fist angry old man style*

I'm hoping all of this will work out and I get to go to grad school. If not, I will have to endure my father's patronizing...lectures about my future. I thank god my mother has improved on the way she approaches me and life thanks largely to her adoption of Buddhism. But hey, if it means my mother looks at things I do with an open mind, I'LL FUCKING STOP EATING MEAT. And I love meat... TT-TT Though I am thinking about going kosher and giving up pork.

To say the least, my New Year begins with me stressing out and wanting to ram my head through my wall, which I settled for only punching, and now my hand has a large purple bruise on it. *sigh* =_=;;; I'm on the edge of the crazy panic wagon, and I wanna get off, dammit.

January will be a shocking painful month of running around doing "future" stuff, like worrying about job application, grad school, grad school possibly in the States or Australia, teaching overseas (in either China or Korea, depending on which my Dad, who's become magically possessive of me, lets me go to...unless, you know, you go with me to Korea, Kati...). To say the least, I won't be writing too, too much...unless it's 1:00 AM and I'm bored out of my mind...or it's UBV or the insane stories Kati and I are working on. Plus, I'll be spending a lot of my extra time sucking up to my two profs this semester, building a good relationship, and then if I don't get into grad school this year, next year I'll have better references...

*sigh* I wish I was back in high school...my high school years were WONDERFUL.

The sad thing is...my life isn't actually as horrible as other people's, so I really shouldn't be complaining, but I can't help doing it anyways.

While listening to Jay-Z of all things. >_>;

**First recording of the new year! WOOO!**

Audio is here.

On the longest night in winter
We'll breathe slow
Like a pair of sleeping dragons
Blowing smoke
I will think you're beautiful
But you'll already know

You'll already know

And you'll be near
And I'll be weak
We'll hold hands
But we won't speak
About any of
These things
That we
can't change

On the longest night in winter
I'll get chills
From the way the world is standing
Completely still
You might want to kiss me
I hope you will

I hope you will

And you'll be near
And I'll be weak
We'll hold hands
But we won't speak
About any of
These things
That we
can't change


On the longest night in winter
Please just stay
With your head upon my shoulder
Where I know you're safe
I'll pretend you're mine to keep
You can do the same

You can do the same

And you'll be near
And I'll be weak
We'll hold hands
But we won't speak
About any of
These things
That we
can't change

On the longest night in winter

On the longest night in winter
It's not long enough at all

 So the first post of 2010 should not be whiny and bitchy like my tired drunken self wants to make it (there is nothing of substance to complain about, but liquor does that to me).

They say how you spend your midnight is how you'll spend your year. At midnight I was in a crowded, smokey kareoke bar drinking cranberry vodkas on my sis-in-law's tab and smooching my hubby. Then I sang bad 80s songs nobody cared about and drank myself silly.

Not sure if that's a good start to the new year? Seems better than last year--when I was spending the 13th hour stuck in a car with my parents, Brooks, and Sierra after my dad took a wrong turn and added 3 hours to our drive from AZ to TX. Yes. Definitely way better.

I am sleeeeepy but wanted to wish everyone a happy new year and many great things this year. I love all of you guys and wish you all the best.

Okay, so I have, as always, not resolutions but goals which I set for myself every year after my yearly New Years cleansing shower. My goals for this year are:

1. Get in shape/lose weight.
2. Get more As.
3. Get in to grad school.
4. Find work/money.
5. Finish one of my stories (hopefully Infection).
6. Get a boyfriend Learn how to drive.
7. Stop swearing/swear less.
8. Overcome my depression.

I hope, all in all, they will be successful goals. That I will meet at least a few of them. Here's hoping 2010 will be good to me~

On an unrelated note, boo to DBSK disbandment rumours~fresh into the New Year and this is the kind of bullshit AKP is trying to pull? Are you fucking kidding me? They need to go suck a cock.

...& good riddance to 2009.

From health to career to fandom...everything was just bleh.

And reading through the entries in my f-list, I guess it wasn't just a crap year for myself alone.

So I hereby wish, from the bottom of my heart, that 2010 will really be a Happy New Year for everyone.

I was going to be greedy and list out a whole lot of wishes for 2010. But in the end I realised I will be content with just one.

________I wish for their happiness.

...actually, that's probably not true, but still...

Anyways, recently, during these holidays, I've been compulsively working on UBV hardcore and should get an ep out hopefully ON New Years. I've got roughly 2 thousand words or so and I'm there. It's only two more scenes, a Jaejoong scene and a Junsu scene that will both be a lot of fun and provide key plot developement and some character developement, but mostly on Jaejoong's part. More details about that yummy yakuza will be revealed...which I'm REALLY excited for. *giddy*

But seriously, this series is taking over my mind. It also does not help that real life is inspiring this series. I never knew that Canada had a notorious mafia! *cheers* I dunno why it makes me so proud! But hey, now we're onto episode 15 and closer to the series finale, which I really want to get out soon. >_>; Need to work on UBV, too.

Kati has also been...*sigh* brainwashing me with ideas...we are currently working on a crackfic, of what we would hope would happen in real life with Jae and Liyin and SM and et cetera. It's rather cracktastic, to say the least. Plus, I've been tempted to work on either an Ouran adaptation or an Furuba adaptation...actually, a lot of Anime adaptations, honestly. *sigh* >_> I'm tempted to even work on a Gundam-inspired story. *SIGH*

But right now, UBV is top priority as I finish off this episode. *_* I love Jae character developement...

 So you might remember how Sierra magically transformed into an epically amazing fanartist overnight...

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And on a related note, Sierra got Pictionary for Xmas from my uncle and Brooks has forbidden us from being on a team together because she draws too fast and I guess too well XD

Six years ago, something wonderful began. It became a journey of music and friendship, happiness and love. For six years, they have brought joy to all corners of the globe, and connected thousands of people. They have touched our hearts and became a part of our lives. 

It's been a road of six years, and there is still a long way to travel. Let us go on together.

So Merry Christmas, y'all~! Hope you guys had an amazing one like I did. I got a lot of good stuff...good grades, a new Guess bag and wallet, but the best of all was easily my Tohoshinki 2010 calendar from my hubby Katie, yay~!

I totally freaked out when I got it. But here's the funny story.

They are pretty much just posters and this morning my Mom came in to see what I got. She was like, "Oh, so these are the guys you fawn over so much like ...Which one do you like best?" I asked her to guess, and she took a bit, and then tapped on Yunho's face. I told her to guess again, and she tapped on Yoochun's face. Then I told her it was Jae; she checked out his picture, and said he's pretty good looking, and does not look like a girl. 

My mom, however, did make two awesome comments about HoMin. About Yunho, she said, "He looks a bit feminine." And about Changmin she said, "He looks like your brother." To which I literally fell over laughing, because I can now kind of see it. XD Then she went downstairs and told my Dad one of them looks like my younger cousin.

So gathered from the bunch, I think my Mom would think Yoochun looks best, though she seems to approve of Jae (she had remarked, "Oh, he looks really nice in this picture"). But her comments about HoMin were freaking hilarious. I don't think anyone has called Ho feminine before. XD This kind of made my already awesome holiday.

My Mom thinks Yunho looks like a girl~! XD *falls over laughing*

EDIT:
Omg, I was so wrong~! XD I just asked my mom which of Tohoshinki she thinks is the best looking, and she said JUNSU! JUNSU! *falls over laughing* She said it's because in his pictures, he looks the manliest...XD She said of the other four, "Blank, blank, blank, blank" regarding their facial expressions. Junsu: "Not blank". Oh how decieving looks are...It's the Su-Glare. It's very deceptive about how much of an adorable retard Su is...XD

Merry Christmas, everyone, and hope you have a splendid time enjoying the holiday with family and friends and large amounts of liquor. And hope all your Christmas wishes come true.